I been doing a lot of thinking lately about myself and my life and I feel that its time for a change. It feels that I am missing something in my life. That one thing that would really make me happy and feel complete. I mean, I have a great husband and kids. I have an adorable 2-year grandson and another grandbaby that will be here any day now. So, you would think I would have everything I wanted. Right? My life has been full of drama and chaos over the past couple of years that it has really taken a toll on me and almost my marriage.
During this time I feel that I lost who I am. I used to not let things bother me and the leveled head one. I always stayed positive, especially when times got really rough. Believe me, they have! Now, I am more ill-tempered, reserved and just at times plain unhappy. I just turned 42 the other day and I don’t want the next years of my life to be filled with doubts, what if’s or even unhappiness. I want to laugh, be free and be emotionally and even financially stable.
Sometimes I feel selfish for feeling this way, but I also know that at one point in my life I have to think about ME. I have spent most of my life taking care of everybody else and still do. I am just so tired physically and emotionally. My husband and I have thought about starting over fresh somewhere else and we may just do that after my youngest daughters go to college in 2 years. I feel that would help me and even us.
But, in the meantime, I need to find the common ground. I need to stop being afraid and worrying about everywhere else. I just need TO DO IT! Find what makes me happy and go for it. Does anyone else feel that same way? If so, what did you do to change it?