When I found out I was pregnant over three years ago I could not have imagined that I would be raising my son as a single mother. I had a partner and I thought we were happy. As it turns out I was wrong, halfway through my pregnancy I discovered that my partner, and my baby’s father had been cheating on me. It was a shock to the system I must say. But I knew I had to remain strong for my unborn child.
Even though we were not together anymore he promised to be there for our child and help me raise him. However two months after my son was born his father disappeared. Turns out he preferred to focus on his girlfriend and himself, instead of being a father to his son.
A couple of months later he decided that he did in fact what to be a father, and I let him back into our son’s life. Hoping that it would be for good this time and my son what have a father in his life, but as you can probably guess from the title that what not to be the case. My son is now three and he hasn’t seen his father in over a year and I doubt he will again. My ex is just far too selfish to be a parent and I will not have him come in and out of my son’s life as he pleases, it would not be fair to my child.
Being a single mother isn’t easy, especially to a boy. We are currently potty training at the moment and it would be nice if his father could teach him certain things, such as how to pee standing up. That is something as a woman that I can’t teach him. Sure he has grandad and an uncle that help out, but it is not the same. I have noticed that my son responds better to males than females, he would love to have his father in his life but sadly that is not possible.
If I’m honest sometimes I feel guilty for not picking a better partner, but there is nothing I can do about it now. I just have to try and be the best mother I can be and hope that it is enough for him. His father is the one that is missing out on all the milestones and special moments.
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