The Guilt Feeling in Me After Helping a Woman

I am a person who tends to be helpful and generous. When I help or extend anything, I never expect something in return. This Biblical phrases – “It is more blessed to give than to receive.” keeps reverberating in my conscious mind, but my conscience won’t let me sleep soundly for the thing I give.



I remember when I was a grader I happened to see a poor person who only lives by cutting hair. His clothes are worn out and he is too skinny. My mother was surprised to learn why I was worrying that something unusual happened to me while I was in school. I hugged my mother while crying and mumbling words that I really pitied that person.

I told her everything and she comforted me not to worry about that kind of person should be taken care by the government or by their own family and they won’t be allowed to wander in the street begging for money or for something to eat. “Someday when you will be successful, don’t forget to help those poor and the needy,” inspired my mother.

Why I Am Guilty

One day at about noon, I was standing at the side of the intersection of the city streets, waiting for a service motorized tricycle to bring me to my workplace. At a distance, I saw a middle-aged old woman as to my estimate of her age. She was begging for every person she met on the street and I was one of them. The money that I had in my pocket was enough for my back-and-forth fare in going to my school. I gave it all to her and went home. I told my wife that I was absent at that day.

Before I went home, I spotted the woman to a wine store. She came with several bottles of wine. I was astounded and remorse of seeing her. I asked myself, “Have I done wrong today?” I headed home with a guilt feeling of giving a money to the woman if not I would have controlled her driving vice. I prayed to the Lord that I would be forgiven for helping other people who aren’t helping themselves.

I couldn’t sleep. My conscience is bothering. I have repented why I helped the beggar woman. My intention of extending the money is good. I want in my simple way be helping someone in need. But I was mistaken that the beggar I have helped, wasn’t helping herself at all. In return, I dragged her to her downfall.

Should I not give the money to the woman so that I would be relieved myself of a bothered conscience? Where do I stand? Am I guilty?



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  • Comments

    1. Profile photo of Rex Trulove
      Rex Trulove

      My perspective is that you did the right thing and the Christian thing. The bible says that we should help people who are less fortunate than we are. It doesn’t say that we must make sure that we only help those who won’t abuse that help. It isn’t for us to judge. That is entirely up to God. Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

      If it is up to God to deal with, then you should feel neither guilt nor worry. Besides, we don’t know the plans God might have for the woman. What you did could very well have been part of God’s plan. At the very least, you know that He will know that you did do as He said and helped the less fortunate. That is a blessing.

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        Gil Camporazo Post author

        You’re right. In my latest post, I express that I am very thankful for the immeasurable blessings which I have received from the Lord.

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        Gil Camporazo Post author

        I don’t know what I have to do for myself. I don’t have the immediate to understand what I have done to the woman. My only intention to help her for I have nothing to give than my only money in my pocket.

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      Ruth Cox

      I do not think you are guilty of anything other than genuine concern for a fellow human. You gave, she received. It is that simple. What occurs beyond that is not really our concern.

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        Gil Camporazo Post author

        Thank you for such reaction. That was the first reaction of my wife when I told her what had happened. She even appreciated me for helping the woman. I don’t have to worry. I did something good for that day.

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      Gil Camporazo Post author

      Now, I am clarified and my conscience has given me the opportunity to do similar things in the future. Helping other or giving service to others is one of the duties of a Boy Scout as I remember it. The other two duties are: to God and duty to self. So what I have done to the woman indirectly affording her of the service which I could give her through my hard-earned money.

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